RANI SUTLIFF KNOWS she can salvage a life, and she can't wait to
try.

She wants to hold an abandoned infant close and let it feel her
life. She wants to hand a struggling baby to the eager parents
adopting it and savor the moment a loving family is born.

She wants to help the way strangers   helped her after her
biological mother relinquished her in Calcutta, India, 19 years ago.
So Rani plans to head to India next year with her mother, Linda
Sutliff, who also was adopted in India.

"I think it'd be neat if I can volunteer where somebody helped
me," Rani says.

Mother and daughter want to help for three months at the
International Mission of Hope hospital, where Rani was born and
lived the first two months of her life. Then, Linda wants to show
Rani the British orphanage and school in northern India where Linda
and her brother Michael spent childhood.

"I've been looking to go back," Linda says. "I just need to go
back."

Linda left India in 1958 with her new Midwestern mother, and
never returned. Linda believes her biological Indian mother either
died during childbirth or was institutionalized. Her father was a
British railroad engineer who worked for the British Broadcasting
Corp.

He put Linda and Michael, 16 months older than his sister, in a
British-run orphanage with 64 children. The orphanage catered to
upscale merchants. Linda was raised on the King's English and
manners at the foothills of the Himalayas. She wore uniforms but no
shoes, and she lived in a cottage with one other girl. She saw
Michael on Sundays.

Ida Hildibrand, a home economics specialist from Kansas, decided
in the early 1950s to help the world situation by adopting children.
Ida was single and well-intentioned but not really nurturing. She
worked for the U.S. government sharing her home economics skills in
India and East Pakistan.

Ida wanted two children and preferred a brother and sister. She
met Linda and Michael in 1956 at their British orphanage. They were
12 and 13 and fit her plan. She took them out of school and dressed
them in tailor-made brown corduroy outfits with shoes. They were
shocked.

"We had never worn shoes," Linda says.

They also had walked everywhere. Ida traveled in a Land Rover.
The car's motion sickened Linda.

Before taking off permanently with Ida, Linda and Michael spent
Christmas with their father in Calcutta. They hardly knew him. He
approved of their adoption because he wanted them well cared for.

"We all agreed we could part," Linda says.

Ida expected gratitude but Linda and Michael were rebellious
young teens. They hated shoes. Linda cut up her clothes. They didn't
understand a mother; they'd experienced house mothers and teachers.
They attached themselves to Ida's servants.

"We felt like we were on display, and we got tired of it," Linda
says.

Ida put them in Indian schools, but Linda and Michael spoke
English. They'd studied Bengali and Hindi like American students
study French and German. They lasted two weeks at the school, then
Ida put them in an American boarding school.

"We learned slang, ate watermelon, heard radio, had hot dogs,"
Linda says.

They stayed a year and a half while Ida traveled. She took them
to the United States via Japan and Hong Kong in 1958, but she
continued to travel. Linda and Michael stayed with Ida's second
cousins.

"It was hard for her (Ida). Our personalities were in place,"
Linda says. "We were kind of hellions. She always thought there was
something wrong with us. We didn't fit in."

Life with Ida took Linda and Michael to Kansas, San Francisco,
Hawaii and Idaho for months at a time. Linda graduated high school
in Montpelier, Idaho, worked with Ida on a Navajo reservation in
Arizona, then started Idaho State University's nursing program.

She met Jerry Sutliff, a pharmacy student, at school. They
eventually married and settled in the Inland Northwest in 1973.
Linda worked as as critical care nurse at Valley Hospital. Jerry was
a pharmacist at Modern Drug in Coeur d'Alene. They wanted children,
but had no luck on their own. So they adopted in 1977.

Baby Erica's biological mother was an unmarried teenager who
wanted a good home for her baby. Linda was determined to be her
"Earth Mother."

But, "I wasn't," she says. "I had no role model."

Linda's skills evolved with Jerry's help. He was a natural father
who had grown up with four sisters. By the time Erica was ready for
preschool, Linda loved her role as mother. The Sutliffs decided to
adopt another child.

In-country adoptions were taking years, so Linda and Jerry
decided on international adoption. India was the only country they
considered.

The Washington Association of Christian Adoptive Parents
connected the Sutliffs with the International Mission of Hope in
Calcutta. Linda requested a baby girl with no irreversible health
problems. She wanted to name her Rani, which means queen.

Rani was born at the mission's hospital and needed a complete
blood transfusion. She had intestinal parasites that took two months
to overcome. Her mother signed release forms right after giving
birth and left without sharing her name.

An off-duty flight attendant accompanied 2-month-old Rani in July
1983 from Calcutta to Seattle to meet her new family. Linda and
Erica immediately took Rani into the airport bathroom, undressed her
and studied their new treasure.

"She was a little brown stick, all hair," Linda says, chuckling.
"She grew into the healthiest of all of us."

Unlike Linda, Rani and Erica spent their childhoods in a close
family that stayed in one place. Jerry died from coronary artery
disease when Rani was 2. Linda raised her girls just north of
Rathdrum. Rani learned about India from the movie "Gandhi."

"Mom forgets she's gone everywhere, and I haven't," Rani says.
She is attending North Idaho College this year. Erica is married
with a new daughter, Serena.

Linda recently heard about organized trips to volunteer in India
through a Seattle University student who's going this year. Linda
wants to go and wants to take Rani with her.  Rani is ready.

"I don't know what to expect, but it doesn't scare me at all,"
Rani says. People often assume she's from India by her looks and she
worries the same may happen when she's in India. "I could be
mistaken for knowing things I don't know."

The Sutliffs need at least a year to arrange work schedules and
raise money. Linda, now a recovery room nurse at Kootenai Medical
Center, hopes to collect donations of medical supplies to take
along. She wants to work in a hospital that restores hope for babies
in hopeless situations.

Rani wants to see where her life began and help find promising
futures for babies just like her.

"I always wanted to go to India when I was older," she says. "And
I want to adopt when I have children."